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Venturing the Professional World
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I do.
I always get the same thought,
Why was I so in tuned with myself before?
What has changed?
It’s good to be able to go back so you can remind yourself how far you’ve come. But it can also remind you how much you’ve regressed.
I’m inspired to immerse myself into something creative, selfless or new.
A week ago, I quit my job after finding out I was severely underpaid (More than $10 an hour underpaid!) and after I realized that I didn’t want to dedicate my work to a company who does not appreciate their hard working employees.
After that, I received an offer of more than DOUBLE my pay, and have been receiving calls every day from recruiters who heard that I left my company. Of course — the first couple of days kept my head big and made me feel good about my work. But it’s now a week later and these people will not stop calling.
I think this is a good sign to show how far I’ve come. Months and months ago I was constantly complaining about the job market and how ruthless it is out there. Now, I’m trying to find ways to dodge these recruiters every day.
I’m going back to school, and my time in the job field has definitely been an eye opener. The biggest thing I learned, is that hard work will sometimes go unnoticed, but good work will never be forgotten.
Always take pride in what you do.
Your work is a reflection of you.
Do You.
This is the quote that I have underneath the signature in all my Emails. I always thought adding those quotes could be kind of cheesy, but after having a job that requires you to read mind numbing Emails all day, a nice quote at the end of a winding Email can be quite uplifting.
Personally, this one is my favorite and pretty much exemplifies that kind of person I strive to be.
Not all of my Post Grad Advice posts can be too positive. I will be truthful in saying that job hunting is a job in itself! These past few months have been a little disappointing in the job field. I am no longer working in Newport due to unqualified upper management. Sadly to say, the rest of my sales team doesn’t work there either. Sometimes it IS too good to be true.
I’ve had many weeks of applying, phone interviewing and sadly, no face to face interviews. I’m learning that job availability is a finicky thing. Sometimes I can line up 5 interviews in a week, and sometimes I don’t hear back for more than a week.
It’s a harsher let down than opposite sex rejection. You WILL find yourself questioning your competency, likability or even your skill set value. This is what I find to be the hardest thing. Being unemployed isn’t hard, it’s not being valued as competent enough for a job that’s difficult to swallow.
Being unemployed is fun — you don’t do much all day, you have free time to do the things you enjoy the most, and you actually get to enjoy the weather! But all is fun and games until you run out of $$$.
I have to tell myself this all the time, I need to swallow my pride and get back on that job hunt grind. The job isn’t going to fall into my lap, no matter if its the 500th time I’ve applied to the job or the 1st.
After all your rejections, stand up again and have faith in yourself.
The journey will definitely be hard. But know that disappointment is all apart of the process.
I have decided to apply to jobs outside of my field for the time being so that I could have a steady income WHILE looking for a job in the marketing world. My first priority is to move out of my parents’ house at this time, so I’m making this decision based on my priorities. But for those of you who don’t have that problem, keep on trucking! Your career is just a reach away.
Hopefully you catch me at the nearest Teavana. LOL
Princess Zelda is my 70k salary, 1 year goal.
I have a grappling hook, a sword and a shield.
I have leveled up a sword today.
I am Link, I collect rupees and will capture Princess Zelda.
Today was my first day at my Newport job. Over the weekend I was fretting about today, but I was able to calm my nerves about my performance by thinking of my career as a Zelda game.
I am Link, and today I leveled up to 5 hearts.
Grappling hook here I come!
I have gone from having no (well, paying) jobs to having 3 (well, paying) jobs. Translate that how ever you wish to. haha.
On Monday I start at this company in Newport Beach. Truthfully, I’m so terrified. I’ve worked my booty off for the past year, working for free, freelancing and just consulting for various companies…
So much that last week I was complaining about how I feel like that mouse dropped into a bucket of milk. I felt that it was impossible to churn that milk into butter and that I was going to drown with 2 lungs full of creamy goodness. Now, that milk is starting to feel slightly buttery.
Advice I have for people straight out of college:
Yesterday, after work … I went to the gym in Irvine.
I had a pretty good yesterday, i’m not gonna lie. My coworkers are hilarious, I’m starting to get comfortable with people at my new job and although I commute to Irvine, I’m thankful for the opportunity.
I’ve fallen into a nice little routine, going to work, hitting up the gym and going home after traffic dies down.
As I write this, I keep backspacing and retyping, but I guess there is no perfect way to express how I feel right now.
I got a call from an unknown number as I approached my car, and I answered it. The sound of a woman’s voice came through the receiver. ”Yes this is her,” I said. It was my sister.
“It’s about papa, he just passed away.”
What is the right response here? I was so shocked. I sat in my car and bawled for about an hour. So many feelings, so many thoughts and I didn’t know who to call or where to begin.
Now, It’s the next morning, and things aren’t less confusing. Things are even more confusing. I have to book a flight no later than today, because the burial is on Saturday.
How will I feel seeing the rest of my family? My relationship with my father was completely different than theirs. What if I’m not able to make it because of flight availability?
My Dad’s birthday was in February. I texted him Happy Birthday, and never got any response. I had been trying to get ahold of him for over a month. He was in contact with my mom so I figure he was just upset with me. Months ago I texted him something that was hurtful, but the truth. And, I don’t believe he ever got over it.
This is not something I should dwell on, because whats done is done I guess, for a lack of better words. But I feel awful right now. People have been outpouring their sympathies, but I really just don’t know how to respond to their kindness. I feel like a simple thank you isn’t enough for how they’ve touched me. But at the same time, I’m not sure how to ask for help.
No one wants to go to a funeral.
So feeling how much this hurts and planning on making that trip is just as difficult as accepting what has happened.
I don’t know what else to say and I know I should be writing a post about how great of a man he was and how he’ll always be remembered a certain way, but at this time I don’t even know where to begin or how I truly translate this feeling.
Please, anyone reading this from your corner of the world, send your thoughts my way, I need all the guidance I can get.
Wherever you are Dad, please visit me in my dreams.
I’m seriously trimming the fat on this thing called life.
It’s taken 25 years of my life to really get down to realizing how easy it is to HELP YOURSELF. People often get caught in this never ending subway ride, where they volunteer themselves to waste time on something that is getting them no where.
For me, I can honestly say that I stopped caring about what people thought, and fell fully into what shapes the mold that is me. I’ve realized that no matter how hard you try, your parents will NEVER have the same beliefs as you. I grew up in a different world than my parents. I am the slightly evolved person from them, therefor I am adult enough to make decisions, even if they don’t line up with mine.
ON TOP of all of that, I’m seeing that MORE FRIENDS doesn’t mean BETTER. Although I will admit, it gets a little lonely on Apathy island, all you gotta do is throw a party. Not the, two is company, three is crowd kind of party. But keep a close knit circle, and you might be able to find community.
Networking, is not Friendworking. And there is a difference.
Sometimes it really takes going through some STUPID SHIT with someone, to show you your mistakes. But more importantly, to show you THEIR mistakes too. HAHA
And now this has just become a short list of the things I have learned by the age of 25.
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Probably the sweetest lady you will ever meet. She touched so many lives at SJ and all those who knew her. She will never be forgotten R.I.P Mrs. Barnes you are in a better place
:( I heard about it today.
She was the most bubbly amazing counselor.
At SJ she knew me even though I was a transfer student
she took me aside during class and asked if I was OK with my transfer.
So sweet. So caring. Always remembered.
(Source: taintedmemoriess, via ksyy-deactivated20130208)
Looked through my box of camping stuff for Hy, and found these glowstick bracelets that I put on the kids at our family camping trip. I cracked 1, 2 … then 3 glowsticks, none of them worked.
So I cracked the last 7 all at once, and these 4 were the survivors.
Then I got sad that I wasted them all.
So I wore them.
And that is the story of THAT.
OH and note that, I don’t know how to take self photos on my droid. I actually don’t even know how to use the flash, so I had to turn on my car lights. Oy yoi.
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I’m kind of having a hard time right now.
That is all.
I give the world my good vibes, and pray that they’re sent back.
Being an only child has its drawbacks.
I guess thats all I have to say without being overly personal.
Refer to seahorsehell.
Rotating sushi
The lab
Corals
Macbook rescue
Wendy williams
My favorite tomato bisque
My day today backwards!
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Just wanted to say hello.
I haven’t really posted any text lately.
Life Update for those who care!:
- Dreaming of out of State Careers :3
- Finishing my last course at USF
- Paris, France in August
- London, England in August
- Portland, Oregon in September
I should say that I probably hit that lil ‘ol thing that we twenty somethings like to call QLC (Quarter Life Crisis) but I’m slowly pulling out of it and feeling amazing. Finally I’m getting that eagerness (for some reason my mind wanted to use the tagalog word GANA for craving/appetite) to learn new things and create the life I want for myself.
The best part is that I know what I’m capable of. And most people are scared of that part of themselves. Not me, I’m just getting in touch with my old self. Sometimes we have to wander a little to find ourselves again.
Thank you life! I’m fabulous.
xx Ezra
